Monday, March 21, 2011

Wow I'm behind!

Oh dear oh dear, we all had a lazy Sunday yesterday and now I'm behind in the blogging world. I'll try to make this brief (yeah right!)

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for. There's plenty of things I could think of to put for this one, but I'll stick with the obvious. I need to forgive myself for not being perfect. I am a perfectionist, in every sense of the word, and it's a constant struggle for me to tell myself that not everything has to be perfect and that I need to learn to let some things go. I can't do everything. I can't be everywhere. I can't be the best, nicest, prettiest, perfect mom, wife, or person in general. I think I have these very high standards that I set for myself and I feel like I'm failing if I don't do each and everything exactly how I wanted to. Shayne tells me all the time that I don't need to make these huge lists of things to do or get done and that when I don't do something perfectly that I shouldn't beat myself up over it. Maybe I should listen to him.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for. I need to forgive someone for creating this huge family mess. However, I'm not feeling super forgiving at the moment and this person has not done anything to deserve forgiveness, so call me cruel, but I guess I'm skipping this one a little.

Ok, so now I'm caught up on that. We had a very lazy weekend and it was great, but now I need to get out of this lazy slump. Shayne worked Saturday as usual and remember how I blogged here about my migraine from hell? Well we got kind of worried and thought it might be something having to do with my back surgery and it could possibly be spinal fluid leakage. Freaky huh? A friend of mine texted me about her boyfriend having that happen after a car accident and he had a brutal headache and was puking his guts out and stuff. That scared me so I looked on my discharge sheet and read the symptoms to look for. I had 2 of them, but I didn't have a fever with it. So I figured if I still had the migraine the next day (it was like 1am when my friend was texting me) that I'd call my doctor. Well the next day I was fine, so I figured it was just a migraine that I get about once every month or so. Sometimes I'll wake up with a bad one and it won't go away all day. I think that's all it was because I feel fine (headache wise) now. I still have some incision pain though and I'm not sure but I think I was still feeling a little nerve pain in my but and leg yesterday. I'm trying not to get bummed out but the doctor said it could take up to 8 weeks after surgery for this to go away. I hope it goes away forever finally!

2 comments:

  1. I think you are a really good person and mom and damn near as perfect as any one person could be, so don't beat yourself up about that!

    And your day #4 reminds me a lot of what I put. I'm really stubborn when it comes to forgiving people, especially if it's something that is their fault.

    I hope you recover quickly from your back surgery!

    P.S. I love the new look on your blog, especially your header :)

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  2. Thank you! I suck at forgiving really, especially this one. It's fresh and it's still an ongoing thing and I know I'm right, so I'm not budging for now! I've tried forgiving and getting over it before and we always end up back in this same situation so that's why I'm sticking my ground!

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